Everything is meant to be broken.
Just like how promises are never fulfilled. I walked so far, only to realize that im ultra tired and worn out this whole year. I crave to go back to the past and be me, and really just be myself.
Again and again, i keep telling myself everything's gonna be okay.
Studies is stressing me out.
Business is wearing me out.
And love is tearing me apart.
Im turning into someone whom i dont even know when i looked into the mirror.
Why am i behaving like this?
I wish i have the answer, but sad to say, i dont.
I really, really pray that i can get away from all these. I shout for a long deserve break...that i am desperately in need of it.
I need my old life back. I need pure love, friendship and kinship.
Who is giving me any of these?
All that i can feel mentally and emotionally are nothing but plain tired-ness.
If given a choice, i hope i can MIA for a few days.
And worst of all, love always fail me. I dont know my heart anymore.
Its a longggggggg day.
Marcus went NS. Somehow, he's missed by me. I feel quite emo inside, even though i didnt tell anyone. The house is already quite empty, without him around these few weeks, i think the house will be quieter. But Nic is rejoicing maybe, cos he can have the whole 3rd floor to himself. The day started off with marcus gone, den came my dad's official opening ceremony.
The whole ceremony lasted from morning till late noon. TIRED. I had my station to guard, which is to ask people to sign the guestbook. Basically, do nothing much and chit chat with my cousins, bro and jm. Many strangers...some from china, taiwan, malaysia, most are clients, some are relatives. Relatives whom i have NOT SEEN for a darn long time. Cant even recognise them, same goes for them too. They cant recognise me. The usual comments, "so skinny...last time fatter. wad happen?" or "got bf already?"
yup yup, my bf was the photographer, haha poor thing. he's sick yet gotta go around taking pics. dar', i know u are sick la...not tt i act blur. haha, im not a very verbal person, u shud know wad. ;)
Anyways back to the event, it was quite big scale. My dad and uncle invited like 9 lion dance and 2 dragon dance. All the workers were wearing their uniform, which my dad got it specially printed with the company's logo. Haha, even the directors are wearing it...my cousins too. except for me, cos dont have my size at all. I cant fit XS. Yay! Im in my own attire, heng ah.
Den i rushed down to bugis to meetup with jill, sharon, juliet and her bf for a simple dinner to celebrate jill & sharon's bdae! ;) Shag but happy. Jill & juliet LIED TO ME & SHARON. BIATCCCHHHHH. Got sharon a $120 capital voucher to let her buy wadever she want...for jill, prezzie postpone! haha she gonna ask us to buy shiseldo latest makeup range...dunno wad bling bling shimmering stuffs. Oh, and edwin treated us to desserts again. He's getting more and more like a galfren to us. haha, we can openly discuss private topics in front of him. "Gals talk".
Tonight i feel wierd without jm with me. We are spending almost every night doing mds stuff till 3am. Suddenly, tonight, he's out with his fren and im out with mine and i had to go home alone...i felt so strange. Like something is missing that i have to tell him come spend the night with me. haha. Nah. but i think he thot im not serious abt it. chey.
ohhh anyways min, just read ur post abt my bdae! thanks! LOVE THE CRAZY PICS! haha looked sooooo fun from the pics! ;)
Im officially 22 yrs old now. I had a really fun and lovely b'dae celebration with my closest friends and jiaming during the last weekend! For once, i was MDS, family, smu FREE for the whole 2 days, 100% recuperating from my fever that bugged me for almost 1 week. Luckily i recovered in time to party! ;)
First it was ktv, drinking and playing cards @ Rain. Den it was clubbing at Double O. I was really busy entertaining all my friends! But i still have sometime to sing...haha, how can i ever forget abt this! Oh its Bimbo & Himbo theme...but apparently, my crazy friends really belong to 2 diverse categories...some came in unknown and unrecognised attires that totally dont adhere to my theme...but some really rocks! And deserve some credits from me! ;) Like Shihui who totally look like a bimbo from her dressing top to bottom! Thanks babe for dressing up for me!!! ;) But the ultimate BIMBOS award really gotta go to my 2 galfrens, Tingli & qimin. WHY? Becos they are really the ultimate BIMBOS. Inside out. haha especially ting. My god, recalling how she talks still make my hair stand! And ting, thanks for singing birthday song in SO MANY COUNTLESS languages! haha that was really sweet of ya! ;) And it was simply hilarious!
I really wanna thank everybody for giving me such a sweet bdae celebration, i felt so blissed and happy! Of cos, i wont forget my man who's with me everyday last week cos i was so sick. He took care of me everyday...nagged and scolded at me when i keep insisting on replying emails, do postage stuff and keeping myself busy for god knows wad. He sweetly volunteered to wrap all the postage stuff for me, fed me pills, tuck me in and went home. Even though i was "BLUR" for those few days, but i was happily sick. ;) And of cos tt moment at rain...while i was playing cards with frens at the other table, i suddenly heard a familar voice singing yong bang's song "ni shi wo zhui shen ai de nu ren"...me being me, i tried to act cool and nonchalent when i know my heart suddenly beat v fast and my face was actually flushing. Darling, im always touched by your voice, u know that. Thats THE STRATEGY to make me happy. I cant help but feel tt i love this man alot. Cos i can totally feel his heart when he's singing this song to me. Thanks for everything dear! Yes yes im touched!
Before i forget, i wanna thank everybody for the presents! To my poly frens, u girls really know me WELL! Yes yes i love Vera Wang to bits! Thanks for the perfume and body lotion, i really smell like a "princess" after applying them! hahaha. And jill, your bf is funny. haha
Thanks shihui for getting me such a nice color cardigan from GG5! Another of my fav brands if u do shop with me...haha i only go for these few brands, cos they have my size!!! ;) Thank dearie, i love the cardi! ;)
And not forgetting the couple, who got me bikini from topshop! Haha thanks eunice and cas, they came just in time for my cruise trip on the 18th! Time for some sun...im really getting transparent these days! Love the floral bikinis! ;)
Last but not least, how can i forget my LAST present which i only got to receive on the actual day back home...from Jiaming! MY AGNES B BAGGGGGGGIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! I love IT LIKE CRAZY! Been using it non-stop for the past few days, its gorgeous and functional, thanks dar! Love ya!! and the present! ;)
You see...not only girls have the ability to act cute, guys can do it equally WELL too. Cheers to Collin & jm! ;)
The X-rated couple. But we still love them!
Ting performing different renditions of birthday song to me!! Yay!
Jiaming's turn to dedicate a love song to me. heh. Love to hear him sing!!
Not-so-bimbo Meiqi & me! ;)
Before we left for rain...snapping shots in Grand Corpthorne! I was glad i recovered FINALLY!!! ;) I dolled up like a subtle bimbo who looks high maintenance and did i say i just LOVE FUSCHIA PINK!!
Kudos to ting. She's the real bimbo.
random shots while jm is singing, i burst out luffing..dunno why. Cant remember.
Sometimes a guy also wish that he can be Ms Singapore ONE FINE DAY.
He stole the crown qimin bought for me!!
Finally, im taller by few cm.
In the midst of singing dunno which language bdae song!
Thanks guys! I had a wondeful time that time!
*georgiana* 
