Thursday, August 11, 2005
What a day. 1st of all, i gotta wait like half an hour for a cab at my house, they should really have more cabs in Sengkang cos' its so damn hard to get a cab here and not to mention that i'm a frequent customer of cablink and silvercab. When i reach the SMU adminstration building, all i see are groups and groups of international students and it made me look like i'm the only local student there. People from Indonesia...India(really alot of them!)...korea...china(also countless of them) ...i wanna see my own nation's students!! =(..
There's so many station i gotta visit based on the checklist they gave me, i'm like a total idiot trying to find my way to all 12 stations! Why cant they have everything together at one spot? its like treasure hunt ..and i detest this game the most, cos' it tires me like hell. The most stupid thing is i gotta walk from the admin building all the way to wad 'lee ka ching' libary just to change the 4-digit pin number for my student pass. That is so out of the way..oh and not to forget, the finance lady made a blunder and did not collect all my tuition grant forms at all cos she assumed i'm an international student from god knows where. SO, i gotta drop by again tmr, so waste of time. Lastly, why do they have to put me in the same group as the international students for our freshman camp???? Shall ask them to change it tmr..Argghh why do i have endless complaints about my school? There are so many upcoming events that i gotta attend in school and i just dont feel excited or look forward to it.
Still cant deny the fact that i am now part of this SMU community.
Baby msged me this afternoon when i was on my way home in a cab(i was in a mercedes prestige cab for 3 consecutive days..haa..how lucky). I know i should feel glad that he has kind of straightened out his thoughts to stay in Melb and do his university studies for the nx 4 yrs but dat is not how i felt when i saw the msg. So contradicting..recently, i realise i've been contradicting myself quite alot which explains why my life is in a complete mess. I seriously dont know where i am heading to or how long i can withstand the way things are right now. I'm just struggling to let time pass faster but it seems to crawl slower than before. Being separated for more than half a year now is already tearing me apart, i really cannot imagine for the nx few yrs. I'm a pillar to him but who can i depend on then? and this pillar might just break into pieces soon. Baby said there's nth much we can do, i knew that all along..or should i say right from the start, but i just cant bring myself to say 'dat's it.'
tell me what to do.
*georgiana* 
