「 what behind my shadow. 11:40 PM 」

I want more.
But i shouldnt feel this way.

Today's BGS class is madness.
Pure madness.
A full MSN mass chatting for a whole 3 hrs!!Yea..means we totally never listen to prof @ all for 3 hrs, maybe few of us did like those who are soo good @ multi-tasking while chatting online(chonghui esp!) but e rest of us were practically talking, surfing, takin pics, stoning, picnic-ing(means lots of food and drinks), basically SHUT OFF! Every monday is like this, sometimes i really pity our prof, he's like entertaining himself all the time. 'Is this class alive?? Why is everyone so dead?' 'You are supposed to discuss this, why am i not getting a response?' 'shhhh! so noisy! are you all doing sth else? why keep laughing to yourself?'
Poor thing.
hahahaha...simply cos we are online or else, doing other stuff!! Ok but he entertains me at least, looking @ his ugly body language, really amuses me to the extreme. Haa, too bad eunice isnt here today! gurl, u miss out all the fun man!! =( =(

「 what behind my shadow. 10:22 PM 」

Jill, i know u r worried about wad happened.
But cheer up ok? I guess its something some people just have to face in life.
Im sure everything will be fine soon, smilesss. Not the end of the world.
Anytime u need me, my phone is on standby mode ok?
Love ya gal.
And thanx for listening to me. I shall have to sort out my thoughts soon, cant let this go on any longer. Hmm...hopefully all will turn out fine for both of us. =)

「 what behind my shadow. 9:46 PM 」

Something is not right.
I have to get out of this, as fast as i could.
How?
...i wish i know...

Something is not right.


...i wish i know...

「 what behind my shadow. 4:35 PM 」

In the midst of creative thinking class.
Simply doesnt live up to CREATIVITY.
CREATIVITY is not rambling about the theory over and over and not making use of it. ARGH. sucks man. The prof is damn long winded, never ending.
Make me so disappointed with this class. I expected more and vibrance, BUT, total opposite huh.

Had Lunch with my class people @ Olio(raffles city) jux now. its the first time! Its not like we didnt go out and eat together before. But this time round, its a rather huge group. hmmm..let me see...got eunice, lionel, tholmas, PJ, nicole, hongxi, angel, qingyi, shuwen and ME! Quite fun to eat in a BIG group, even though its jux abt 2 hrs thingy. The food's great but im so tired of talking, i think i talked too much all the time. =( need to rest my mouth and not dehydrate so much saliva.

「 what behind my shadow. 12:01 AM 」

**HAPPY 10 MONTHS**
Love ya lots.
Only about 3 more weeks before i can really stop missing you so much.
smiless. smilesss. smilessss.

「 what behind my shadow. 8:54 PM 」

He is darn irritating.
Firstly, i dunno why he kept calling me.
Secondly, he stupidly dunno how to pronounce my name correctly & said
GEORGIANA=GEORGINA OR GEORGE.
hell with him la...cant see the great diff meh?? Being a prof for so damn long yet he doesnt know George is a guy's name. Do i look like a guy in any way? OK. Maybe cos its HIM dats why im offended. I suppose if its other people, im rather alright with it. WHY...?
cos he is the MOST STINGY & UNREASONABLE living thing i ever come across.
Really to the extreme. Fancy getting upset and angry over 22 CENTS & a few bucks when he earned like 10k a month. OMG.. i really cant stand stingy people, and yet he's the ultimate man. Which is why drastically reduce my respect towards him. He can write a bloody long letter to Singtel jux to refund back 22 cents or a few bucks which he claims is the "right of a consumer".
Yah RIGHT. which consumer would be bothered abt 22 cents in e 1st place?? throw on the floor i also dont wanna pick them up. ARGH. he jux piss me off with his stingy habits and pervertic trait. bleah.

* on a happier note..
Qimin came to meet me and eunice for lunch today @ cartel! I ate until so full..ok but it was a nice lunch, cos eunice get to see qimin which she haven seen for 2 yrs & vice versa. It always feels extra comforting to catch up with old friends which you haven seen for a long time. =) Oh yah qm, i haven use your senseki mask yet. haha, i a bit scared to use after u describe the peeling sensation. Like quite painful huh..how should i peel it? I nv use peeling mask before besides sheet masks. haha maybe i should try this time round since everyone give good critics abt this brand.

「 what behind my shadow. 2:01 PM 」

Sorry.
Its really beyond my time and strength.
I really wanna talk to you, look at you, and smile at the little foolish things you said to me.
But, im too tired. Too much things to be done. =(
Maybe my time management really sucks. That's the best i can do.
I wish to have more time for you, but spending more time with you virtually means i will have lesser time to complete all my work due. Tell me what should i do then.
No time to sleep, no time to relax, only time to finish my assignments.
I'm completely worn out. Now i truly understand how meng, fang & min felt when they are so stressed up with school. Esp meng, he looks like he haven had a decent sleep for weeks. Find time to sleep ok pal? I wanna see your bitching instinct back to action the nx time we meet.
I guess i really need a good quality break to RECHARGE.
Past few weeks were madness, next few weeks would be worse. **ENDURE**. Exactly 1 month more to seeing him & my long awaited HOLIDAY.

「 what behind my shadow. 2:20 PM 」

How i wish.
For these 5 weeks to be over.
& there comes my 21st Nov***. Or at least...
tis entire week. Cos its hellish.
2 tests to begin the 2nd half of my semaster with & 1 individual assignment due.
Mind you..dat stupid assignment is 30% of my whole module. Gosh, i rather have tests man. My puiny brain cant seem to squeeze out anymore words for my assignment.. ok, i admit, limited vocabulary. haha, my english standard has remained stagnant since sec 4 O's. Simply cos i dont read AT ALL(if fashion mags are counted..then errrr yes), no so-called General Paper to perk my writing ability and last of all, i dont like to study!!! But i dont have a choice, do i? I rather spend the WHOLE DAY flipping thru beauty & fashion mags to "digest" all the tips than to sit down and flip thru my whole stack of notes for law. I'm just a slacker who has interest for everything else especially "how to look better" xcept for studying and exams. Its crap. I wonder years later..would i still remember all these shit i have studied in school or fashion statements and beauty tips im taught on tv and mags?? hahahha...ok probably MY UG gerss (including bitchy Meng) will go..."ok lah dats GEO. Nothing surprising."
Oh anyway, guys, i think gg BK during dec would be more expensive compared to now. I saw this promo which goes:
3 days 2 nts F & E
Stay in Pathuwan Princess hotel(v near shoppin centres & 4*, alot of sporeans stay there)
Fly by Thai airways
$ 420 + 124(tax) = $544 nett
haa...kinda ex rite? Perhaps we shud consider sittin budget air? heh..jux hope i dont puke. Must decide already if u guys are really keen, cos its mid oct already! & we are gg on 3rd dec!!!!

Not to forget..
i wanna blog abt mq's pervertic encounter!!!
ok babe, sorry for treating this whole thingy so hilarious, hahahaha dats my 1st reaction lah when u told me abt e "er**tion" dat occurred. OMG..hhaha IM STUNNED. I cant believe spore actually got such ppl ard..when we r supposed to be safe. YAH RIGHT. Despos running ard showing u their d**ks. Shucks. And i wanna emphasize its BROAD DAYLIGHT, like early in the morning!! haha, mq's really unlucky and this must be a sore & GREAT TORTURE to her eyes, poor thing! After midnight shift so tired and sleepy, haha this incident must have totally woke u up from tiredness! wa lao, but dat BANGALA got so much guts, or perhaps he's despo till he cant control it anymore. PUI. YUCKS. mq, dont feel traumatised ok? haha its over, dont dwell on it, forget abt e whole thing, esp his......hahaha. Oh man, im also filled with disgust even when im not you.

haha, okay...BACK to my pile of books. zzzzzz

「 what behind my shadow. 10:43 AM 」

HEH. New skin!
More colors than the previous one.
I love the yellow picture. hmm.
THANKS yinyin for helping me! Credits to her. =)
For that, dont worry, i'll help u get ur jeans when i go BK.

「 what behind my shadow. 11:26 PM 」

True love*
Is there in the first place...?
Is it really that easy to meet the person you truly love?
And is there a subsitution for that person in any part of the world?
What if another person comes along and replace him or her...
does it make your life equally complete and meaningful?
All these thoughts are rambling through my mind one after another, haha, not supposed to be something negative or pessimistic again, but im jux reflecting on my thoughts. And i asked him all these questions which to other people, might sound foolish to ans but to me, somewhat realistic. His answer were just too honest, frank and a bit disappointing.
BUT...i gotta understand that's his view, not mine. I'll just live with it.

To me, true love does exists.

「 what behind my shadow. 9:22 PM 」

A new hair color.
Ash green highlights with brown base.
How wierd can dat be??
Oh my...looks algae-ish but rather normal on fotos. heh.
Eunice & shihui said its nice. Okay, i shall live with it for e next 2 mths or so.

But anyway, im so glad i saw 2 of my frens which i didnt see for so long. First, its angela! Gosh i miss her like nuts. The last time we talked was before i left mandarin in april. She still looks the same, so cute & soft. hahaa, whenever i talk to her, i feel myself trying very hard to be gentle which im not. She just makes me feel so fragile and like i wanna protect her too. & amazingly, she's actually helping out at Hair @ work despite her background. *Power of love.



Then, its Shi hui! I cant believe we are still close after so many years, she's like the female version of ethan. hahaa...one of e longest friend i keep in contact with. But compared to days in primary school, she looks soooo much prettier now. Here she is:





But yesterday was really not a very productive day. Eunice and i agreed to do our AS & MA together after visiting the hair salon, yet we end up talking @ Bakers Inn for hours. We spent 15 mins doing AS and after which, we decided that we shall head to far east and shop! So not productive, our ultimate conclusion is dat, we should never meet outside school to do work, too many distractions & temptations. sighs. And in e midst of eating, chatting and crapping, we took pics of our new hair!

「 what behind my shadow. 7:15 PM 」

Im going nuts, as usual.
MA totally suck, its making my head burst open with all the formulas, tables and theories.
Biz Law is hellish, all the terms are making me spin.
AS is crap, forever crap, never logical since day one.
Okay, im damn stressed up now. =(

Anyway, SORRY to Fio. haha you know why, shhhhh. So sorry, didnt mean it. *smiles*
I know u are gracious enough to forgive me. heh.

Finally, our BK trip is almost confirmed. Everyone is going except for MQ & sean who cant confirmed. sobs. Kinda pointless if only 4/5 of UG is going rite? Cos its a wish since sec 3, which is like 5 yrs ago?? But then, i understand how mq feel, without seannie by her side and looking at us all with our respective halves, she will probably feel damn low. Still, i hope you can go!! See ting is rather enthu despite going with her fren!
Man, i really cant wait for my long-awaited holidays, i mean real vacation and not like this one week of "recess" where work piles like there's no tomorrow. And the thought of going with him makes me happier than everything else. Oh talking abt that, its jux another 39 days MORE. OMG...times flies. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

Updates on UG: hmmm...firstly, mq is still hound by her sickening colleagues who takes advantage of her and makes taking leave so damn hard. And ah, congrats. What a relief. hahaha...u know wad i mean. =) Tingli, okay, dat indian was REALLY INDEED a passing tree which we are kinda glad for her. Quoting ting, "he's a bastard." And a dirty bastard at that. And qimin, we didnt take pics at all lah!!! I mean with ur cam, my cam only got 1 pathetic pic of us together which i think is too YELLOW. Oh ytd we kinda agree and come to the conclusion that "guys got a big ego which we cant cross." which i think is damn true. Its jux a matter of whether we can accept that ego and leave with it. hahaa...apparently, mq kinda failed. Qm on the other hand has a BIG EGO too haha so collin and her are quits. hmmm..Lf & Meng looks really tired ytd, issit becos the 7 MODULES ARE KILLING YOUR gossiping and bitching instincts???? hahahha...=)

O U R S N A P S*

12.51am.
I miss him.
Shucks, how to sleep?
Today, my whole mind is telling me " i need you. Like beside me right now."
Endure geo, exactly 40 days MORE.
ARGH. Im so damn useless. Someone help me!!

「 what behind my shadow. 11:08 PM 」

T I R E D.

I think my PMS(i mean, *post) is acting up on me again.
sighs.
I wanna see HIM, now, like right @ this moment. Sometimes, i jux wanna be selfish and have him all by myself. But...=(

Anyway, i went to Health fitness Spa today, not to enjoy spa treatments, but to interview the director. Hmm...its really a good experience, i enjoy talking to strangers whom i respect. This indian/malay managing director of HFS is damn friendly and nice to us, he actually bother to entertain us despite being so busy. And moreover, there's absolutely NO benefits to him @ all. Kind soul. & Thomas lost his hp!! wth. He lost his hp on the cab and can still feel completely normal. Really wierd. If its me, i will cry my heart out, those precious msgs & contacts & endless photos. Oh my!
My BGS project group: Evita, *the director of HFS*, cheryl, thomas aka john aka qinglin aka zhong, & mE.















Went to meet UG for dinner in town. I'll post the pics dat we took tmr. Off to bed...zzzz

「 what behind my shadow. 3:29 PM 」

Finally, its FRIDAY.
Here comes my 1 week of "holiday".
Looking @ my schedule, i have to go school 4 days out of the whole week. What a holiday.
But on top of that, i can sleep!! Regain my beauty regime for this whole week...REST TO THE CORE.

After class, i met up with Zhiying in town to shop for her stuff. She bought what she wanted, business suit + mary jane shoes. And normally when i "accompany" frens to shop, i will definitely get sth for myself in the end. Haha, i bought clothes again. ARGH. Am i addicted to retail therapy? SHUCKS. I need help. Some one shud jux freeze my bank account and let me be penniless.

Anyway, i realise now me & Zy got 1 common topic that we jux cant stop talking about. That is......
Our respective universities & happenings!!
Last time when we go out, cos i was still in POLY & she has already gone into NTU, so we seldom talk about school work. Wierd, now we have like endless stuff to talk about NTU VS SMU. Wahaha...mainly complaints though.
we took this while waiting for train:

「 what behind my shadow. 9:51 PM 」

Yeah right...H O L I D A Y.

Its a total crap in all.
To make it sound nice, its a one week holiday. But to me, its one whole week of projects & mugging for 2 mid-term tests (Biz Law & Management Accounting). Argh. And worst of all, my cruise trip is gone, which indirectly means no more gambling or spa for me. =(
No more slacking @ home and sleeping my hours away. Coz i got to get my ass to school almost everyday, even saturday, damn. SIAN-nified.

But its alright. Despite all the stress in my studies, im having a good time making new friends, catching up with old friends & spending time with my family and my favorite pastime, SHOPPING. No shopping, i can just die. Its really an effective therapy to everything. Feeling troubled? Go shop and all your money away!! You will feel proud with all the goodies you have bought with your $$$. Ok, ethan will probably nag @ me like mad if he knows the rate im splurging on the resources in my bank account. haha, dats why i shall STOP my retail therapy once he's back. My main pivot in life would be HIM and nothing else. So right now, i shall do whatevery i want and when he's back, im gonna spend all my time with him!! Like what i did when im in Melbourne. *wide wide smile*

Exactly 1 MONTH 15 DAYS to the day he comes back. Means the day when im no longer alone in a beautiful world, haha, for at least 2 months. So glad.

「 what behind my shadow. 3:31 PM 」

Most hated: people who abuse animals(esp.dogs) in anyway can go f**k themselves and DIE LAH.

Just pissed me off.

Today is a slacking day at home so after mugging on my Biz Law text, i wanted a rest and went to watch "Animal Planet" on scv ch 10. Once i tuned in, i saw this poor poodle being starved to DEATH. How sad can it be? That bloody cruel owner of hers didnt feed her for many weeks and tortured her with bruises all over her poor, fragile, stick-thin body!! In the end she just died despite being so young, only 3 yrs of age!! Shit lah...my tears suddenly just POUR out like waterfall...damn so emotional. But whenever i watch this kinda animal reality shows, i just cant helped but feel damn sorry for these ill-treated animals all over the world. If only i have the means and space next time, i will adopt as many as i can or just open a pet's cafe to house all of them. But anyway back to the show, dat psychoic asshole not only abuse a poodle, but 3 other dogs too!! Though they didnt die of starvation, unlike the poodle, they are suffering from serious malnutrition which would take months to regain back their health!! And their coat of fur are seriously affected by starvation!! Poor thing...
UNLIKE Vicky who is always so blissful & lucky to have us as her family since she was 3 mths old...we treat her as part of our family, despite her agitating us @ times with her piercing barks @ strangers(mainly indians)-yeah she is damn racist, bad breath, peeing in our toilets, knocking on my door in e middle of night cos she's damn afraid of thunder & lightning, we still love her dearly. Im so glad dat my mum chose Vicky instead of other dogs that captured our attention. To this point in time, i cant imagine my life without her, it would be imcomplete, i guess. Though she cant talk, but looking @ her expression, i can somehow guess what she is thinking or what she wants. But of cos, most of time, she jux convey to me as being so pathetic and pitiful looking dat it is so hard not to care for her or adore her.
Take a look:






How to NOT love Vicky...she's irresistably cute, and the cutest in my eyes.

「 what behind my shadow. 1:20 AM 」

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY JULIET!!!!
HURRY FIND A BF, LEFT 2 MORE MTHS ONLY!
If not, i will be waiting for your BIG treat! Dont lose to sharon lah, u can do it!!

We went to have a mini celebration by eating @ KFC, singing @ Kbox and finally eating AGAIN @ Coffee Club. How nice. I miss their company and laughter. Jill is currently going "ga-ga" over "THE GREECE GUY"(haa dats wad we call him), jux becos he's in greece right now. But then, im more impressed this time by her choice. wahaha...so much better looking compared to L**nard, a total diff. Okay looks doesnt matter dat much but to a certain extent, it still does. And to jill, i guess it matters. Hmm..i dont think she will be the loser end of the yr, so now it bounds down to other two, Juliet & Sharon. Totally no progress @ all...(shit, sharon must be scolding me right now, "kuku")..BUCK UP GALS!! But they dont have time to find a lover, sharon's too caught up with uni(like all of us!) and Jul is immersed in her working life. We'll see..haha, wonder who's the ULTIMATE LOSER who's gonna treat ME. =) I'm looking forward to end of yr countdown cos it means no matter who lose, i will still get to enjoy my sumptuous meal. yeah!!
*yawnssss* I intend to read my "business, government & society" text becos i'll be out during my weekend, but im so drained now, physically & mentally worn out. Sleep, i shall go...zzzzzzzz