「 what behind my shadow. 9:41 PM 」

Finally, all presentations, projects, tests and assignments are ALL CLEARED.
woohooo! yay! A tiny shout of relief. But here comes the EXAMS.
3 more days to MA paper. shucks. im still blurry abt this subject, even though i manage to barely scrap thru my last test.
CT ppt was just plain dumb. Firstly, i woke up late...cos the previous night, we stayed in school to mug until 11+ den i asked all of them to go eat dao hway @ selegie since its damn near our school...imagine like 10 of us(me, cheryl, eunice, evita, pj, lionel, ronald, john, tholmas, jinsheng) went to eat. Still as nice and smooth as ever. haha. After tt, stupid lion suggest we go play dota at this LAN shop nearby...freak, all of us went together and sat there for nearly 2 hrs gaming. wtf rite. hahaha...its exams time and just before our ppt on friday morning, 9am!! MADNESS. DOTA was fun...haha i cant imagine myself finding warcraft fun man. We had 2 teams, me, eunice(we are the maggots cos we r still NEW) WITH the experts (ronald and lionel) versus evita, cheryl and john. hahaha...really damn fun. Ownage! After tt, we were all damn shag...and the next morning...almost everyone is late for ppt. ahha..i came at 9.15am. dam. =(
Ytd...in the midst of mugging...eunice decided to snap pics cos she brought her cam. here they are...

「 what behind my shadow. 5:15 PM 」

Time to hibernate in my little corner and mug like crazy.
Countdown to exams: 1 week exactly. SHIET. Haven started anything. freak.
No more shopping for the time being, no more fun, no more distractions, keep my focus on books and notes. STUDY GEO!

Ethan's back though. A little distraction for now. But not gonna let it get in desire to get good grades...i worked rather hard this sem, dont wanna see em wasted just becos i got no time to mug.

A little preview on post-exam activities: clubbing on friday nite after bis law paper, 5th dec: JB trip with classmates, shopping spree with peeps, catching up with my frens, spending time with him, etc etc.

Back to my books. =(

「 what behind my shadow. 6:38 PM 」

Today BGS is REALLY FUN...to the extreme.
1stly, its our ppt, i think it was a blast! At least to me...i had so much fun talking abt spas and smelling soo much of my rose absolute in the morning. hahaha...morning blues therapy.

After 3 hrs of ppt...it was CRAZY FOTO TAKING SESSION! I feel like i have nv took sooooo much pics before in MY ENTIRE LIFE...its MADNESS!!!!!!! Posing like stars for everyone's camera, everyone wanna take pics with everyone, pushing ard, acting cute, stripping the guys, throwing food ard...its just crazy lah!! Prof is totally overwhelmed with our actions and zanity early in the morning..haha! And the ex convicts that came for our ppt were fantastic too...they are filled with soo much enthusiasm about their repented life now...felt really happy for them! Jimmy Boh and Benny...'turn into a new leaf'(quoting tholmas...haha) I LOVE MY CLASS...every single one of 'em, such fun people! This semaster in SMU, i really didnt expect myself to enjoy soo much and made so many good frens! JB trip after bis law paper on the 5th dec kk? Shopping and seafood craze! Woohoo!
Let the pics do the talking lah!

「 what behind my shadow. 11:29 AM 」

Finally.
2 more days & he's back.
Its been almost half a year since i last saw him. Time really flies.
I yearned to see him again the moment he left my sight in melbourne.
That really seem like ages ago, too much things has happened in my life after i went to smu.
New frens, hectic life, different priorities and focus.
All these made me confused and lost at some point in time. But right now, besides my exams, i just wanna see him again to assure my thoughts.
I miss you.
And after monday, i finally can stop missing you for the moment. At least for now.
Im looking forward to monday. Potluck celebration in school, taking pics session, mugging with my frenss, getting ready to go airport and pick him up, and lastly...just to see him again. =)














Monday, here it comes. heh.

「 what behind my shadow. 11:09 PM 」

Potluck??
haha, sounds fun!
We are having potluck mini farewell celebration this monday for BGS class.
Everyone is supposed to bring their own food, and my frens actually wanna bring alcohol....omg....drinking alcohol as early as 8.30am in the morning?!
So crazy! Wth...i dont wanna get drunk on a monday morning, so crappy. I still need to mug for business law after class.
Stupid thol ask me to bring tomatoes. ARGH. He will eat if i bring tomatoes...heh. Im gonna choose a really BIG AND ROUND one and stuff it inside his mouth!(haa anyway, really thanks alot for the ride home!) hahaha...monday's gonna be a really crazy photo-taking session!! fun fun fun!

Finally my MA test is over! wheeeee~ No more MA class! which means, exams are really like round the corner...time to buck up. I shall make good use of my hours and book a study room everyday for mugging session with my peeps. Today's class was fab! The last grp to present actually came up with a mini farewell party for the class, which kinda touched prof to tears! haha...sing-along session, little stars to write our wishes for everyone, roses for all the galss and foto-taking session! Lunch @ thai express...i think we practically occupied the whole of thai xpress, like 18 of us...!! omg...my class is mad man! Its just sooo noisy when u have sooo many ppl yakking at the same time, but its like a break from our test in e morning! Total relaxation! But its kinda like roller coaster today, everything was great, den i had a taste of how affected and moody i can be when one of my frens got annoyed by another fren over wad she said. Kinda affect me cos i dunno wad to do to make that person feel better. But glad dat everything is okay and fine, back to normal! asshole baboon dota addict! And him too, luckily everything is okay, i was worried when i received the msg. =)

Ok. Just do wad u want. really.
I mean what i said.
I dont have the right to tell you wad to do.
My life dont have time for you now, our lives are just so different. Just do wad you wan.
Its all my fault. Sorry.
I dont have time to be myself anyway.
And its wierd when we have no time to talk virtually, and u have a chance to change everything on 21st, yet u wanna delay. I just dont get it.
wadever.

「 what behind my shadow. 12:10 AM 」

Stayed in school till 10pm today.
What a LONG day in school, from 8.30 AM to 10.00 PM.
Wth am i doing man? I spent most of my time in sch rather than home, home is just like a second home for me to sleep.
Despite being so busy, hectic, stressed but im happy. Times spent in school is great, especially hanging out with my friends, they are fun people, i didnt know we can enjoy each other's company so much. Its kinda different from poly when u will be separated into your own little clicks and all you mixed around are those few people in your click. In smu, everyone is friends, all my classmates are my friends, we can mug, talk, crap, joke, eat, laugh, gossip and 'scandal' together!! Lunch with like 8 to 10 people is just madness!! And of cos, handle all the projects and stress together! Its nice to have such fab classmates...=) A pity that we will be separated into different classes nx sem.....so sad!!! Im so not looking forward to making new frens again nx sem! Thanks all, for being such nice pals...!! You guys make my everyday in school so fun! But pls stop about the tomato, chilli padi, chatterbox, ANAL-ogy, chinarian and maocheng thingy...its just sooo paisei for me. argh. Stupid eugene, tholmas and ronald, PLS STOP OKAY.

「 what behind my shadow. 4:27 PM 」

Hmm...i can sense the tension is building up.
Tension of projects, presentations and of cos, EXAMS.
Wth.
I'm only like 2 weeks to my exams...and i still have got 2 ppts, 3 reports to hand in for the next two weeks, with simply no study break @ ALL.(NUS & NTU have...wad happen to smu?!)
stress. stress. stress.
Everyone is going crazy soon.
Recently, i observed my parents have REALLY TOTALLY like leave me alone, no disturbance and the usual concern of questions, 'got eat anot?' still dont wanna rest ah? Cant finish your work ah? Hows school today? wad time u coming home tmr?'. They have stopped asking me all these...haha i think they just wanna leave me alone, no provoking me @ all. If they ask all these, i'll prolly just yell @ them.

Ytd, despite friday night and e fact dat im normally out till damn late during weekends, i went to meet meiqi and qimin for dinner and lil chit chat session. BUT...omg, the whole time, im jux thinking...'ok i need 2 go home and get this or that done..' My body is physically there but my mind is full of checklists for my deadlinessssssss. Lifeless to the extreme.

Peeps..im gonna stick my ass onto my chair and mug for the next two weeks or so. haha, pls dont tempt me to go out ok? no shopping, movies(except harry potter on 17th nov!with eunice and tholmas and casimir), ktv, crapping session, wadever. Im gonna be a mugger. Im just sooo lag behind.
AND my 2 days week nx sem has became 3 days week. =(. Cos' i bid another business core with my 'palsie'(according to val...we are sooo palsie!) its freaking on a friday morning...and cost me 25.24 bucks. Stupid prof...but the non examinable bit just attracts me. heh. & the thot of being same class with soo many frens, eunice, tholmas, ronald, jinsheng, pj, nicole etc etc. smiless.
Oh and my new hair....haha thanx dear for recommending such a good salon! Changing hairstyles is a good way of stress therapy. =) =)

「 what behind my shadow. 9:43 PM 」

Bug down by presentations and reports.
OMG. I need to breatheeee.
After this week, no more AS crap once ppt is over! Yay!
I hate this subject like mad.

Bidding starts again! My next semaster timetable is FABULOUS AND FANTASTIC!!!
2 DAYS WEEK?!?! omg...i only need to get my ass to school for 2 days, e rest of the week, im free! To think that my frens still wanna swop timetable with me? Plss...with this kinda timetable, who would wanna swop man?! Close to perfection. heh. Tuesday and wednesday...hahahhahahaa. Ok im too elated. But the sad thing is...all of us gonna get separated again! ARGGGGGHHHHHH...all the good pals i have made during the past 3 mths...i dont wanna spend my nx sem without them, how sad! Only PJ is the same as me...e rest all separated into different classes..which means we have to make friends ALL OVER AGAIN. =( I like my class now..too many crappy ppl to entertain me all the time, mass msn chat, gossiping sessions, unproductive project meetings, makan sessions, etcetc. Hopefully we can bid for our 5th module together and get the same slot! At least together for 1 module! =) =)

「 what behind my shadow. 10:10 PM 」

SORRY.
I ask for your forgiveness.
I love you.