Friday, March 31, 2006
Why do this song still linger around in my mind...? Somehow, it never seem to go away. Once in a while, i find myself humming the tunes or wanting to hear it once more. No matter how many times i hear it, i never seem to grow tired of it.
so memorable.
Dont be afraid to cry, wasn't a waste of time.
But every now and then you cross my mind, and i try not to think about where you are tonight.
But i miss you, i really miss you, cos i really miss you.
There's no going back cos what's done is done.
I miss you, i really miss you.
But sometimes love just aint enough
I know we cant go down the road again
And it hurts too much to think we might have been...
couldnt hold you anymore
I miss you.
*Sometimes love just aint enough.
Monday, March 27, 2006
LTB has officially ended today after we blew our torch of life.
Im glad; but i will defnitely miss those times we had.
From strangers to friends, we really have come a long long way.
All those late nights, meetings and coming together as a team are soo memorable & unforgetable.
It was definitely a day full of highs & lows...some group's videos really cracked me up but others were all teary and touching. But out of all these groups, i still love my group's da most! Cos its everyone's hard efforts and work.
Its funny like how another team can have the exactly identical ppt theme as us but yet we did soo much better than them! It just shows the level of effort that we have put in...haiyoh, wanna compete with Da Royal Crashers?! Just courting doom lah.
Bing kia still haven send me pics yet...and am still waiting for our celebration meal together!! Will upload my ppt pics once i got em.
And also, comms is over too!! Yay...all ppts OFFICIALLY OVER. **smilesss**
It was quite a blast for comms. I dont know how well i do, just hope that i can get at least an A- for oral ppt. To pull up my written grades(they suck.)
Stupid Tom Estad. Use his british english std to mark singaporean's eng. wth.
Im drowning in my piles of work.
LTB, comms, fa, stats. Arrggghhhh.
H...E...L...P...
After thurs, i can finally feel more relieved.
I need to regain my energy, not much left.
Im dying to shop, eat good, and sleep good.
Countdown to end of hellish days: 3 days more!!!!
Yippeeeeeeeeeeeee...wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Friday, March 24, 2006
We argue. We snap at each other. We bicker.
All couples experience that in one way or another, i supposed. Its just a matter of frequent, sometimes or rarely.
Before we got together, it was never. After we got together, it became 'sometimes'. And after 4 mths, it became a 'norm.' We love each other...but sometimes, we just dunno what got into us that we must hurt each other. In the end, its never what we wanted.
All i want to see is his smiley face...not a cold, expression-less face that seem so unfamilar to me. Im at my wits end when he ignore me...cos' never will i know what is wrong with him. As much as i want to share my everything with him, he doesnt seem to reciprocate in the same manner. Do all guys love to play mind games? Talking about gals playing mind games all the time...isnt it true to say that guys are the one creating all these hide-and-seek games...not telling me exactly what's on his mind? Or is it the ego?
We made a promise to each other today. I hope neither of us will break it because promises are never meant to be broken. After all these times of 'ignoring' , i finally know how shitty one can feel being ignored by the person he or she loves. I simply feel drained and upset when he did that to me. It makes me feel like im all alone, even when he's standing right beside me. I dont wanna do tis to anyone, anymore. Especially him.
And worse still, i know since the day we got together, i can never turn back and walk away from him. Never can i do that.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Yea...what a sickly week.
Despite feeling so stress over all my deadlines nx week, im terribly sick. I dont even have the energy to rush my projects and stay healthy. Over the weekends, i had lower adomen pain. It was sooo bad tt i almost fainted. Nauseous, ears blocked and out of a sudden, my vision became blur. Luckily ron was with me, if not for him, i think i would have fainted somewhere without anyone to help me. Persisted for like 2 days till i see doctor and he actually suspect it might be due to appendicitis and urged me to go hospital for blood test & urine test. SO...putting all our work ASIDE, ron accompanied me to changi hospital which was e nearest and waited for me like almost 2 hrs. (baby, thanks for being there for me...muackss...dont worry k, shall recover my health asap so tt i will have the energy to argue with u..oops...heh.) After all the test, i was told it might not be appendicitis but the doctor actually wanted me to be admitted to the hospital. wtf. No way man. I have soo many things to do so i made do with a whole bag of PILLS. YUCKSSSSS
Thinking that i have totally recovered from my pain, something else had to happen again. I had a cold cos i was drenched in e rain today. Came home, and my head was burning hot, body aches like crazy and my cheeks are RED. How unlucky can i be. I always got drenched in rain; its not a big deal but why must i get a cold LIKE NOW?? I have FA TEST TMR!!! Now i cant even stay sober and study....i need to REST. R.E.S.T. I guessed i shall have to postpone my test..but im still going to get my ass to school tmr noon for biz comms meeting(our ppt is nx WED!) and comms class-cant skip class again....=(
Damn. I swear i will definitely give my body a good holiday both mentally and physically during my vacation in april. Cant take any of this madness anymore.
Oh ya..im so touched today during our LTB group reflection. Since young, i loveee people to praise me(am sure everyone does...). So its been quite a while since i hear praises and good feedback about ME. Pehaps cos when people get older, they tend to forget how little praises can lighten up someone's day. You just have to open your mouth and say something nice...its totally free of charge yet it can always bring so much joy to that person. My LTB frens let me know something more about myself which i wasnt aware of it before. "geo brings laughter to the group & always there to relieve tension...people-oriented and frank...creative...loves my stories" ***SMILESSSS***
I never knew i have the ability to make people feel happy and relaxed. Really. (all thanks to my LTB GROUP: DA ROYAL CRASHERS!)
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
I can really feel stress oozing into every part of my body right now.
Fatigue, sleepy-ness, tired, drained.
@ this time, i just feel like saying, "hell with smu."
Which mother son or daughter can survive in this hellish school with tons of projects and deadlines?
HELP.
Looking @ min's blog, i cant help but feel tt we are both in the same plight.
Bad grades are always a retribution to skipping classes. Always. And as usual, i skipped my stats class once again ytd. After all the ltb's craze in da morning, who still got energy to go for class at 3.30 till 6.45 pm? Its a bloody 3 hrs 15 mins class.
The whole world is in an exam-frenzy mood right now. Even me. Darn determined to get better grades this semester. I really cant afford another blow like last sem's.
**Countdown to exams: 26 days MORE to stats B & FA**
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Its one of my dearest galfren's 21st celebration ytd!
E.U.N.I.C.E HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!
dear: how? found the present?? hahaha...hope u'll like it. =)
And thanks so much for da food, and jeremy for getting last-minute drinks for us(though it taste kinda wierd...with da earlier fruit punch..heh) and providing an avenue for crazy bgs bunch of ppl to gather again. Thanks dear!!
You definitely looked drop-dead CUTE in that white princess-like dress ytd, with the tiara...OMG. haha..am sure Jeremy was totally smitten with em. And your bdae cake...DAMN it was adorable, just like you. heh. Honestly i have never seen such a gorgeous looking cake which was vertically inclined instead of usual round and flat shape. All thanks to jeremy's sister. Love it!
Its always extra comforting to be able to catch up with friends anytime, anywhere. BGS's craziness was kinda relived for a moment yesterday, if only more people turned up.(my usual crapping khakis couldnt make it: Cheryl, Fiona, Evita, Eugene, Winifred) But still, we had fun! All the memories we had last semaster; esp. our monday morning express(mass msn chat), really missed em! Which class in smu is having as much fun as us man?? bleah. Only one and only Francis Pavri class! Shall bid for his another module, 'Technology & world change' nx sem. haha.
Snapping in da train like a pair of photowhore & photo-gigglo, heex.
So babelicious dear!
Da early birds.
Lion also want a part of eunice's tiara. He looks exactly like a gal, doesnt he?
da cutest bdae cake i've ever eaten!
Eunice: you looked stiff & stone. HAHA
All in the palms of Lionel. Crazy fellow!Oh and i have to mentioned tt ronald amazingly 'spoil' my reputation last night by telling everyone how narcissist i am. As for the tiara on my head, i was forced to put on by everyone after they know how much i LOVEEE to take pics of MYSELF. All thanks to my darling. well-done pig
scandalouz.
The no 1 rated guy in our BGS class by PJ.
candid*
Okay, now back to my hectic school life. I can imagine myself surrendering to a whole LOAD OF PROJECT DEADLINES & test over the nx 3 weeks. DAMN. Ltb's final ppt & report, Ltb's final touch, comms' test & ppt, FA quiz 3, fa final project...and not to forget, my 2 final exams: fa & stats b. fcuk. Countdown to my long-awaited holidays(4.5 mths!!) and my salted-duck soup @ lagoon for dinner. heh.
Friday, March 10, 2006
Just changed the color of my hair, yet again. To reddish tone.
And i really must mention..its damn cheap lah!! Considering the fact that it is located @ Raffles Place with all the office buildings around...it cost me like 45 bucks for dyeing my hair and treatment too. How cheap can it be?? And also cos Hair @ work belongs to my friend's mum, thanks Angela! Pity i didnt get to see you tt day..time for our catching up session!! =p
My new color!
Today i had my LTB quiz. Haaa...seriously speaking..its one of the easiest quiz i have ever done in SMU since yr 1 sem 1. My dear TA(teaching assistant) warned us its gonna be damn difficult..told us to mug as hard as possible..but it turned out to be a blast! Felt extra relieved!
Tomorrow is Eunice's bdae celebration! Its not the actual day, but she chose to celebrate in advance. Great that she invited all our usual BGS class ppl to her party...which means its time for some crazy snapping & chit-chatting! Fun, fun, fun.
Monday, March 06, 2006
Sometimes i really wonder how important grades truly are. All the craziness about pursuing excellent grades - does it honestly reflect how much effort one has put in his/her work or is it merely to assess how far you are able to stand out amongst all other people of the same level? I'm really clueless. All my studies life have i been chasing after good grades and licking the taste of thrill and satisfaction if i have gotten A, A+ or distinction. But... prudently, i guess ten years down the road, when i am part of the working community, i would not even have remembered all the struggle i have gone through to pursue my distinctions. Everything would be so blurred and slowly diminished into my 'past'. So, why then, or what, am i fighting for all these time?
The only answers i could derive are, to satisfy my parents' expectations & let em have something to compare with their friends and relatives, to appear 'intelligent' (not hardworking) in front of my friends & not lose to them in any way. To me, sometimes i really think i cannot afford to lose, even in small challenges . Perhaps that explains why Taurus are always said to be hard-headed and competitive in whatever they do. And being a perfectionist makes things worse.
After entering into SMU, pressure seems to take a toll on me most of the time. I used to think i can handle all these well; especially BEFORE i came SMU. All the exams and projects in poly...they really seem quite nothing to me. Without all the due attention & hard core mugging, i can still emerge as one of the few distinction-holders. But now, its completely different. Not attending class, no self-mugging or great amount of effort would definitely affect your grades like nuts. No doubt about it. That leaves me to wonder - did i make the correct decision to embark on my university life or things could have been better for me if i work in the hospitality industry, just like my other friends?
Regret or not to regret...all depends on me, i guess. Live with it**
Sunday, March 05, 2006
My beloved mommy's birthday celebration today.
Her bdae is actually on e 7th march but we celebrated early cos my parents are only free on sundays. And since its always FAMILY DAY..so might as well make it today.
Dad gave her a surprise by inviting her best frens over without telling her. So my mum kept thinking only our grandparents & ron were invited. Her frens came with a bouquet of roses & a hongbao(how sweet!) and hide somewhere. And we(me & my bros) bought the latest Elizabeth Arden's After Five for her. Nice subtle scent for evening wear! Luv' it!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUM.
Love yaa
Saturday, March 04, 2006
I know you will prolly say to me tmr,
'baby so embarrassing, take those pics off ur blog!'
Dear, i still wanna blog abt em. bleah. Since i dont get to have my "revenge", i shall blog abt you being my beauty customer....forced to be one though. hehe.
Always wanted to go into beauty line...even as a beautician, i dont mind. I just adore anything to do with looking pretty and nice. Today i got to be a beautician, not a customer like normal times, and ron's my chosen, most privileged 'guinea pig'.
While he's feeling all drowsy and sleepy, i went to cleanse his face and make sure its clean be4 i put da "cold facial mask" i bought fr SASA to get rid of acne and pimples and soothe skin. Cost like less than 10 bucks..and it has got a slight peppermint smell and best of all, its in a powder form which means i can mix it myself!! I just get the kick out of doing all these...add water and mixing it until it looks creamy, put the thin mash on his face and spread da mask all over his face! Splendid!
**Ron asked me to take away da 1st pic..with his closeup face covered in mask. humph.
Geo(da beautician) & ron(da customer)
I think i shud bring all my pdts over to his house. Scrub, moisturisor, eye mask, massage cream, etc. So fun! Make it a weekly session! yay =D
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Poor vicky's been locked up for almost 1 mth already.
Cos of her period, which happens like twice a yr.
And everytime this happen, she gotta be locked up in her cage for at least 1 mth. If not, our floor will be splattered with drops of .....
I dont really care..but my family kinda feel disgusted, esp da males. Freaked out totally.
Even pampers dont help. I bought pampers and tried putting on her..but she's just too hyperactive...the pampers never stay long. haha..will end up on the floor somewhere.
Dont tell me abt sterilisation. My precious is already 6 yrs old. I just find it a bit risky to do it now and considering the pain she have to go thru after tt, i guess its better to let her be.
Ron always say vicky=ME. We are like one same being with identical characters n behaviors. Yah right. Like owner, like dog. Its funny how he can draw so much parallels btw da two of us...i nv realise it until he mentioned. The whining, hyperactive-ness, wary towards strangers but once close, will stick to tt person, eat non-stop(a glutton basically), her big tummy(like mine), scrawny legs, small,big eyes, apple-shape face...etc etc. How similar can we be man...hahaa.
Anyway, just to share a article on da fate of a dog, fr e start till the end...its so sad, i just cant help but weeped as i read thru the article. The decision to keep a pet in da family is an important one.(to ALL irresponsible pet-owners, you suck.) All animals deserve our love and sensible care becos...
All life is precious.
here the article...take time to read.
sob*
Feeling weary.
Why, why, why?
This semaster's soo dry & lethargic.
I feel like im going in circles, and i can never get what i want.
In almost everything.
Now, i dont even know what i want.
Maybe its time for my usual dose of therapy...retail...facial...nails...spa.
So vain. So bimbo-tic.
*eunice...when? shall we?
*georgiana* 
