Sometimes i really wonder how important grades truly are. All the craziness about pursuing excellent grades - does it honestly reflect how much effort one has put in his/her work or is it merely to assess how far you are able to stand out amongst all other people of the same level? I'm really clueless. All my studies life have i been chasing after good grades and licking the taste of thrill and satisfaction if i have gotten A, A+ or distinction. But... prudently, i guess ten years down the road, when i am part of the working community, i would not even have remembered all the struggle i have gone through to pursue my distinctions. Everything would be so blurred and slowly diminished into my 'past'. So, why then, or what, am i fighting for all these time?
The only answers i could derive are, to satisfy my parents' expectations & let em have something to compare with their friends and relatives, to appear 'intelligent' (not hardworking) in front of my friends & not lose to them in any way. To me, sometimes i really think i cannot afford to lose, even in small challenges . Perhaps that explains why Taurus are always said to be hard-headed and competitive in whatever they do. And being a perfectionist makes things worse.
After entering into SMU, pressure seems to take a toll on me most of the time. I used to think i can handle all these well; especially BEFORE i came SMU. All the exams and projects in poly...they really seem quite nothing to me. Without all the due attention & hard core mugging, i can still emerge as one of the few distinction-holders. But now, its completely different. Not attending class, no self-mugging or great amount of effort would definitely affect your grades like nuts. No doubt about it. That leaves me to wonder - did i make the correct decision to embark on my university life or things could have been better for me if i work in the hospitality industry, just like my other friends?
Regret or not to regret...all depends on me, i guess. Live with it**
*georgiana* 
