waiting for you: Never can I

Friday, March 24, 2006

We argue. We snap at each other. We bicker.
All couples experience that in one way or another, i supposed. Its just a matter of frequent, sometimes or rarely.
Before we got together, it was never. After we got together, it became 'sometimes'. And after 4 mths, it became a 'norm.' We love each other...but sometimes, we just dunno what got into us that we must hurt each other. In the end, its never what we wanted.
All i want to see is his smiley face...not a cold, expression-less face that seem so unfamilar to me. Im at my wits end when he ignore me...cos' never will i know what is wrong with him. As much as i want to share my everything with him, he doesnt seem to reciprocate in the same manner. Do all guys love to play mind games? Talking about gals playing mind games all the time...isnt it true to say that guys are the one creating all these hide-and-seek games...not telling me exactly what's on his mind? Or is it the ego?
We made a promise to each other today. I hope neither of us will break it because promises are never meant to be broken. After all these times of 'ignoring' , i finally know how shitty one can feel being ignored by the person he or she loves. I simply feel drained and upset when he did that to me. It makes me feel like im all alone, even when he's standing right beside me. I dont wanna do tis to anyone, anymore. Especially him.
And worse still, i know since the day we got together, i can never turn back and walk away from him. Never can i do that.