I wish to believe everything that happened to me over the past few days, its for a reason. A good valid reason.
But somehow, i just dont see it. I dont understand why.
Every night before i sleep, i wish upon that the nx day i wake up, things would be fine. Like how it always were after we bicker or quarrel. But it never happen. I know this is not another argument we have.
And yesterday, i've got to know the real truth. Religion is the least problem. The real problem between us is that, you cant make me happy. wrong, wrong, wrong. If its really like tt, i would not chose to be with you in the first place. And i know it the best myself, that you are able to make me smile. I always feel extra blissful to have you around. We are incompatible? What is compatibility? All i know is as long as love each other, we are compatible. Why wanna make things seem more complicated than it really is? I am just a simple girl looking for happiness and i truly see that you can give it to me. I dont ask for anything more, i dont need you to shower me with material gifts, i dont need you to give in to me all the time, i can get used to that. I dont need all these; i just want you back.
What should i do after exams? What should i do during my free time? I am so used to seeing you every single day, what do you want me to do now? I cant seem to find solitude except with you. We have so many things to do together, so many things to fufill, and now i can only treat it like it never happen. Who is going to accompany me to school now, who is going to talk to me over the phone every single night, who is going to imitate all those advertisements and make me laugh, who is going to carry my stuff when its heavy, who is going to print notes for me when my printer runs out of ink, who is going to eat dinner with me every evening, who is going to embody my tantrums, who is going to hold my hands and hug me when im sad, who is going to study with me during exams, who is gonna love me?
I need you.
*georgiana* 
