waiting for you: im suffering, my heart is weeping.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Im devastated. Cos you hurt me like crazy. No one has ever done that to me.
Issit a retribution? After what i have done to my exs all these years?
Now i finally understand how they feel. Im utterly sorry.

I always love you for who you are. This is so unfair. Because i am not a christian, you had to do this to me. I saw it coming, but i was always hoping for the best that this would happen later, or we could try our best to overcome it. I did so much to be with you and now, all these must happen. Why wasnt i told of these in the beginning? "It is a sin to be with a gal who is a non-christian. I cannot commit to someone who is not a christian. We dont have any future cos you are not a christian. "

Yeah, issit my fault that i am not the same religion? Or issit my fault that i love you too much? This is cruel. You make me feel like i am better off dying or disappearing to somewhere.

p.s: sorry that i have to blog this down, cos i dunno how else to channel my thoughts. I need a letout.