waiting for you: Mummy says... ...

Thursday, April 20, 2006

"Wei ah, i 1st time see you like this over a guy. Last time always dump ppl, now its your turn. This time round you really like him alot hor? Never seen you so upset before."(in chinese)
My little mummy told me these words while i was happily watching my tv.
I was taken aback by what she said. I replied, ''mummy, i 21 yrs old already, cannot play play anymore. Im serious this time round." She saw how sad i was over the past few days, and how i almost ruin the relationship with my own hands. Im too wilful, spoilt and always think that whatever i said and do is right. And everything ONLY revolves around me, which, apparently is not. I behave like a kid despite my age and i have wierd habits that irritate people around me or close to me. For eg, i will drink different drinks in different cups and leave them all around the house, in ron's house, i do the exact same thing. Same goes for food. And even pouring a glass of water, i need ron to do it for me. And my room is always forever messy even one day after my maid cleans it up. Thats how 'spoilt' i am. My dad had enough of me over the years man. I need to make some revolutions or changes to my life.

I dont wanna suffer any more pain of losing him again.I wanna cherish him all over again. Im really bent on it. I catalyzed our breakup and i dont wanna do it again. It almost drove me nuts. Im really glad that there is still a chance for us to work things through and solve our problems eventually. May it be religion or whatever, we will face em together.
I love you.