waiting for you: I miss you so~

Saturday, July 29, 2006

They appeared in my mind again.

I told myself to stop thinking and missing them so that i wont feel so bad and sorry.

But...whenever enactments of their deaths crossed my mind, i cant helped but feel my heart twinging. The pain i feel inside. Its not something tt i wanna dwell on, making myself feeling miserable. They are never my dogs; i have never taken care of them and their memories in my life are soo limited, but yet, i feel so much for them.

Just mins ago, i was walking home from the lrt station when the sound of a dog's bark stopped my footsteps. For a moment, it sounded like Coco. It sounded so much like her when she wants us to play with her. Or when i go upstairs to have my dinner at my uncle's, that was the sound she would never fail to make each time she sees me. Thats the only chance she can get so much attention, i guess.

Then i realised she's been gone for 2 weeks. Time passes by so quickly tt most ppl in my family seemed to have forgotten abt them completely. I think soon after, i will never hear anyone mentioning their names again. To some, dogs are just dogs. They are animals, they cant talk, cant express themselves. There's no need to feel so much for dogs. But dogs, like us, have feelings. They can feel sad or happy...and how they feel totally depend how we treat them. They help guard door willingly and wait for us to come back everyday, just to give them some pats on their heads. After wad happened to coco and mimi, i learnt to love vicky even more. I wanna give her all the love i have, cos she gave me hers.