「 what behind my shadow. 8:25 PM 」

Here comes another NEW batch!
Me & eunice are always so busy when it comes to thurs night & friday.
Why? To get everything up on Ms Divine Shopper* so that people can shop over the weekend!
It always gets kinda crazy & exciting when it comes to launching new batch of stuff. Cos there's so much to be done before we can post them up ahh. Not that easy as people may think.
But nonetheless, i always enjoy doing all these ok? haha when people say our clothes are nice...i will be like SO OVER THE MOON.

Our new series called "De Dolce Gal"!
Please scroll down to my LINKS & click on "Ms Divine Shopper*". heh.

Oh, and before i forget, i just wanna emphasize something here...Yes, i am single now, but like i said i wanna practise abstinence from love, being hurt in this r/s is gonna take god knows how long to recover, i dont want to put myself in this kinda situation or fall in love again. At least for now. And moreover, i still like ron. Though im trying to get over him, and he seems like a stranger to me now, but the fact is, i am STILL IN LURVE with him. This love is not something that i can get rid of overnight. And even if i get ron out of my heart, i dunno if i wanna like someone for the time being. When it comes, it will come. Im leaving everything to fate. ;) I dont want any bf now. Thank you very much. I am glad being single.

Anyways, today was KTV session with my usual gang! At Kbox! Sang our hearts out till 11+ and our bill shot up to 111. dunno how many cents. But then, haiyah...we are just photo whores. And a bunch of bitches. Especially me & Jill...taking photos are just so fun that we cant stop! And poor sharon got so irritated with us, cos she has to concentrate singing(if not, will go out tune) and at the same time, help us snap shots! Haa...!




Yes, Fully concentrated on choosing the songs i wanna sing! haha
Superman & Lois Lane(ME!!)
Yeah right.Playboy magazine according to Jillian. WTH. More like "being played".


No doubt we look kinda dumb here, i know.

「 what behind my shadow. 8:44 AM 」

Yeah its back to SCHOOL DAYS.
Mugging, rushing for classes, project meetings, presentations.
AND not forgetting, STRESS.
I can see all of it coming my way soon.
I wanna switch back to my mugging mode...or "student" mode.
But its hard...my footsteps seem to stop at my "holidaying" mood during the past 4 mths or so.
Gosh.
School seem so unfamilar. Even friends or classmates. I can walk past them without knowing their names. Totally cant recall wad were their names.
Today is already the second week into the semester.
And im still "blur", like how i missed the first week of class during my year 1 days.
Im really glad that this sem, me & eunice can be in the same classes for almost all the modules. In the midst of all these chaos going on around me, i am relieved that my good friend is here with me to perk me up. ;) And cheers to Ms Divine Shopper*...its finally taking off and earning some moolahs. I put half of my heart and soul inside so really hope it can amount to something that i can be proud of myself.
Just some infomation for those who dunno when we will update our website with NEW ARRIVALS...it will be EVERY FRIDAY NIGHT ok? Take note ahh!! Very important & crucial...hahaha. We will definitely try our best to bring in more variety and stuff...but cos this is only our part time work, so we cant totally devote all our time and effort to this. Especially when schools gets busy...we might even neglect it for a while! But not to worry, we will make a comeback definitely!

As for my "kapo" frens who are concerned with how i am getting on with my EX lover....im fine ok? Today, i was rather surprised that so many ppl in smu actually know we broke up. The fact that i didnt make it an OPEN news...but yet it spreads ard so fast, must be those big mouth frens of mine. Haiyoh. But yeah, im getting fine. After these few weeks, i have made up my mind to let go. Completely. Cos i guess i have to come to my senses. And face up reality, no more beautiful dreams at night. I dont blame ron for all these that happened...honestly, its fated. I just feel that this r/s developed at the wrong time and it has to end. I treat him as a very special guy who came into my life and taught me alot of things, be it good or bad. Cos i really learnt alot from him and our r/s. He will always have a place in my heart not becos i love him, but becos he's ron.(haa...i doubt u guys will understand wad i mean...but nvm.)

Yeah, in a way im resigning myself to fate cos there's really nothing much i can do anymore. The only way is to forget abt him and move on. I cant say for sure that i have gotten over him totally...but in time to come, i believe i will. In school, we still hang ard quite often cos we have a number of same modules...but i cant feel the love and affection from him anymore. So i guess its easier for me to treat him as an ordinary friend. And after talking things out that day with ron, i feel that i shud just make myself happy so that he can be happy as well. As long as both of us are happy, it makes this breakup worthwhile.
;)
Right now, i wanna practise ABSTINENCE FROM LOVE. haha.

「 what behind my shadow. 9:42 PM 」

Time to do some advertising for my new batch of goods!
"FASHIONISTA" theme!
Lotsa strips, floral prints this time round ;)
Do check em out!

Here's some pictures of wad we have selected:






Ahh...all these stuff i also bought myself!! Haa, love em! ;)

「 what behind my shadow. 7:28 AM 」

I went to NUS bash with sharon, jill, juliet, jill's bf & his fren at MOS ytd night!
It was smoove, R & B.
But....ARG. I have 'nuff of clubbing my night away.
Guys are just so....yucks. Dunno where are they from.
And tranvesites everywhere. OMG. Almost wanna puke despite only drinking a bourbon coke & vodka lime.
The music's still okay...sometimes it got too slow until i dunno how to dance according to the rhythm. When that happens, i will head towards the toilet and stone there with my frens. Haa...instead of clubbing, we were snapping pics & chit-chatting inside! The toilet's a more comfy place to be in, for me at least. Outside's just a mess man.
There's this despo guy...gosh, goodness man..he can actually be ATTRACTED to a half man half woman creature. Yeah...creature thats the word to describe them. Or maybe freak? Wadever. But he was starring right into HIS breasts the whole time...touching HIM everywhere. YUCKS. And did i forget to mention tt before he danced with tt half man & half woman...he was lingering BEHIND MY BACK??!!! DOUBLE YUCKS. fucker. Damn disgusting. Stupid despos.
I used to have my bf to protect me wherever i go...so i never knew clubbing is so weary until yesterday. When u have to fend off those flies around you...it just gets on my nerves. And they LOVE to pop from behind...when u cant even see their freaking ugly face, they will dance close to my little butt. Shiet ass. ANd just when i came out of the toilet walking to find my frens, these grp of guys stopped me say wanna buy drinks for me. WTH. Yeah as if i will drink with em. ARG. I cant stand despos! Haa, maybe im just boring and not spontanous. But clubbing is getting more and more sucky. The only thing i enjoyed the MOST was taking photos! haa...
LOOK @ my photos galore!




OHH...i've been using this FOUNDATION PRIMER from Paul & Joe, its GOOD! See how my makeup stays & the radience the primer produce on my face! Go get urs! Thumbs up for this pdt!

Yes, thats how bored i am! Haa


Yeah thats how we entertain ourselves when we dont like the music outside!




I dont wanna club anymore...for NOW. ;)

「 what behind my shadow. 7:54 PM 」

Was shopping the whole day in town with Jill & Sharon...
For like 5 or 6 hrs,
in the end...i bought nothing!
I really cant believe it, its like a record set ah. I have never bought almost NOTHING during shopping my entire life. Omg..this is really unbelievable. After i started Ms Divine Shopper*, i find myself becoming smarter towards shopping..like wad are the stuff i can buy & wad i shouldnt.

And finally, we got to meet up with Juliet's bf, Edwin. I saw him before but didnt really talk much the other time. He's quite a gentleman, i must say. Happy for my dear friend. ;) And seems like now im the only one who is "single" right now...kinda not used to it. Cos im always the one who's attached all the time and always the one who has endless things to yadah abt my lovelife. And now, i became the listener instead. My dear fren Sharon is also in love! Jill's happily attached with her bf & Juliet too. Hmm, i dont feel tt im pathetic or what...just a tad not used to it.

I know Ron wont read my blog after we broke up. So i can write wadever i want here. And i hope he wont read also...and know im such a useless girl. Yes, i still haven gotten over him. Its not easy. Many times in a day, i hope i will receive a sms from him or just chat with him online, i realise tt nowadays, these are the little things tts enuff to make me smile. I know i will get lotsa knocks on my head from all u guys when u read this...but honestly, im at a loss too. Im really trying very hard to get over this r/s. In my heart, no matter how much i want him back, i know its really impossible btw us. Its never gonna work out btw us, thats wad he said to me. I just find it so hard to accept this fact whenever i think how happy i can be when im in his arms. Or all the little gestures of love that he has shown to me for the past 9 mths...and how much time we have spent togr...it breaks my heart to think abt all these.

Today, i met him for lunch. Dont scold me pals. I know now isnt the right moment to see my ex-bf, esp. when i still like him so much. But i just want my heart to feel better. Indeed, i felt rather happy when i saw him. We talked quite abit...even though there were moments of silence. I guess we just dunno wad to say to each other. There's so much tt i wanna say to him, but i dunno how to. I kinda regret not saying , "I love you" to him, not making use of any chance at all to express how i feel towards him when we were still togr. And recently, i always have this urge of saying to him. How ironic.

Cus i need to post some stuff to my customers, i was writing the address when i heard him picking up a call from his overseas fren. And i could guess tt he was asking ron who he's with and wads hes doing...and he replied, "im with a friend. " I almost wanna tear. My heart almost crumble into pieces. I try so hard to hold back my tears. I will never be able to tell other ppl he's my friend only, esp in front of him.

Im such a failure.

「 what behind my shadow. 3:17 AM 」

Yeap peeps!
A sneak preview into the 2nd batch of items!
And of cos, your prettiest, gorgeous, cute lady----->ME as the model!
hahaha ;) I just love modelling for all these clothes!
Ok, but soon we will take away this idea of using us as the models, cos apparently we think it doesnt look professional...heh. Pls do let us know if u guys prefer US being the models. Haa ;) I'll gladly DO IT for you.

Take a peep! If you like anything HERE, pls proceed to Ms Divine Shopper* @ my links section. Thanks!!






TADAH! Thats NOT ALL ok, lots more at Ms Divine Shopper*!!

「 what behind my shadow. 7:55 AM 」

Yes!
BRAND NEW Ms Divine Shopper*!!
Not the old one...thats for 2nd hand stuff!
This is BRAND NEW STUFF FROM TAIWAN, KOREA & HONGKONG!
Go grab it before its gone!!
And support me! ;)

「 what behind my shadow. 8:23 AM 」

Yeah, photos sharing time!
My darling shihui wants me to post pics on my blog so that she can "kop" from here. Just now, we were like 2 stupid girls trying to find suitable backgrounds and lightings to snap pics of us in orchard. Haa, so embarrassing la. Okay, anyways some pics that we took just now sitting by the roadside drinking...infront of heeren shops...ha, enjoy!




Ok, now then i realise my hair is V shape, yucks!!! I want to get it trim straight. This sucks man.




Yup, you can see we are really 2 crazy women.
Just now, we went to Origins. Ha, i was supposed to work there for this 4-mths hols. And in the end, i did NOTHING. Like absolutely NOTHING. I wasted like 1/3 of a year. Gosh. Ok anyways, thats not the point. The point is that i went origins to take a look at this xfoliator that qimin & lotsa ppl gave thumbs up for. The modern friction exfoliator. Cost $75. The SA tried some on my hand and i thought the rice starch felt soo coarse. Like anytime gonna peel off my face skin. I cant imagine using it on my little face. But she said its normal...my skin is quite sensitive to exfoliation which is why i have never try it myself. Only at facials. But i was soo convinced by her that i shud exfoliate my skin at least once a week to look more radient. I dont exfoliate AT ALL...but is my skin dull? Hmm. I really dunno. But anyways, im gonna try exfoliating my face for once and see the difference! Oh, and not to forget, i bought this hydrating mask from NUXE...shihui said its recommended by "nu ren wo zhui da" this taiwanese bimbo show..ha. So, will blog abt the results once i start using it! Stay tune!

「 what behind my shadow. 8:28 PM 」

I went to meet Jill & Sharon for dinner and dessert ytd in town.
And told em that im single now and why i let ron go.
The only reason is becos of religion.
We do have other probs; but all these i believe can be solved ultimately if we want to. But its the religion issue that will always be there.
I cant guarantee if i will ever become a christian.

Cos of family business background, my entire family, and also, there are alot of areas in christianity that i dont agree and believe. And right now, im feeling so skeptical abt christianity. WHY? Becos to me, religion is supposed to be something that binds people together, regardless of wad forms of religion, just like race. But yet, christianity puts people of a different religion apart. They can only bind with you if you are "one of them". And even in love, religion becomes the biggest issue. Without religion, there's no love.

Since i was small, i have always been a tv freak. All the dramas i watched before abt love...now i realised that its impossible in reality and that it only happens in that square box call television. These scriptwriters really deceived me...;( They always portrayed a couple so happily togr and all these happen becos of LOVE. Love is enough for a happy couple to stay togr. But in reality, its not enough for some people. Even with love, in the end you can still go your separate ways. How sad is that.

These few days i've been thinking alot...breaking up with him is of cos very hard for me. I dunno how long its gonna take for my heart to recover from this. Cos after all, ron has really became a huge part of my life since i went to smu last yr. And we have been through so much togr this one yr that he alr has his place in my heart. And now, i have to treat him like a friend which i dunno if i can ever do that. Maybe in time to come.

But honestly, i really learnt a lot from this r/s. This is really one of the most important phrase in my life...i have come to realise many things in life. Firstly, i should know a guy better before i get togr with him. That means, make everything clear first...his background & all. Somehow, dating a non-christian or catholic will be one of my main bf criteria. I know tt sounds dumb...but i really detest putting myself in such a situation ever again. Secondly, he must love me more than i love him. If not, in time to come, i will definitely suffer. 3rdly, he must appreciate me. Yea, thats about all. Easy isnt it? My frens make it sound like as if its so easy for me to find another guy. Its not lo...not easy to find a guy whom i like and he also like me. So pathetically, im being pulled into this bet cos im single again. Every new yr countdown, we will have this bet amongst the 4 of us. Whoever remains single when a new yr approaches will have to treat the rest a sumptuous meal. Now its my turn. ;( (cross my fingers*)

Ok, time to share some pics!

「 what behind my shadow. 11:47 PM 」

Recently, me & my dearie eunice are up to something.
And its gonna be ready real soon!
A BRAND NEW Ms Divine Shopper* is gonna launch soon...in 2 days time!
Keep your eyes fixed on my blog!
We are about 7788 to complete everything.

Yesterday was really fun cos we went product-hunting for 4 hrs straight and found lotsa pretty, girlish stuff tt im sure all of you will adore! Heh.
Galfrens & guys, please give me full support for this ok?
It has been something i always wanted to do since poly days..but my parents dont really allow. Cos my daddy thinks there's no future to it.
Now, its just the beginning. If response is good, i have further plans to develop it!
My dad, amazingly said he wants to sponsor me everything and help me whenever he can! And he actually offer to help me print name-cards?!Haa...haven even started wanna print namecards alr. Anyways, my dad is someone who loves giving namecards to everyone he meet. Like very proud of himself. haa. Great dad i have!
He even wants to offer us office space. Errr....but the ground is still empty. They are only starting to build his office.

Hmm...i hope with this new direction in my life, it will give me even more shopping trips OVERSEAS! To places like taipei, shanghai, korea, japan, hongkong and aussie! Totally looking forward to it!(To shihui: Time to go shopping overseas babe!)

Ok, nuff said. So busy. Tmr i have to meet like 2 or 3 customers. I cant even remember who alr. My current shopping blog will still be a place where i upload new 2nd hand stuff to sell...mostly due to impulsive buying. But guess im gonna make it STRICTLY NO MEETUPS...cos i really dont have the time to meet them personally and pass to them! So always check tt blog for updates. As for the new site me & eunice are setting up, its something a tad different.

Counting down to the launch of Ms Divine shopper*....
........

Ok, on a serious note. Im kinda worried about my weight problem. I seem to be getting lighter and lighter even when i maintained my diet. I was shocked when i weighed myself just now. Few weeks ago, it was 39kg. Was happy cos i put on 1 kg. Then slowly, it dropped to 38kg. Then 37.5....and now, its 36 kg!!!! SHUCKS. I really dunno wads wrong with me. Wonder if this is normal and shud i see a doctor. Anyone knows abt this kinda weight loss problem pls advise me, thanks! I really look much thinner compared to before, and i wanna gain some mass desparately! My poor boobs and butt gonna be gone if i dont gain some kilos. ARG. This is really like my all-time low. I tried eating fatty foods...snacks...pasta...wadever can make me fat. But no use. ;(
HELPPPPP.

「 what behind my shadow. 8:24 AM 」

Yeah, today is definitely another busy busy day.
Even without my other half with me.
Spent like almost the whole day online, selling my stuff....made quite a number of deals today!
Unknowingly, i happened to chance upon a blog selling stuff like me...den saw so many ppl posting their blog address so that more ppl can visit...i did the same too! And within minutes, i got emails asking for my stuff! It feels kinda good when people praised tt my clothes are nice or awesome...haha...yeah they dunno how much money does down the drain. Cos i nv worn them before. And now im trying to clear them away.
ANyways, i posted lotsa new items on Ms Divine Shopper*.
And more to come definitely. So do support my shopping webbie! For nice, pretty stuff!

On a different note, i brought vicky to see the vet today. ANd guess wad?! I was so worried cos she's been experiencing lotsa skin problems, remmeber i posted an entry abt her having this bump on her face?...den the vet said she's having a very bad skin allergy and rashes....breakouts.....and itch all over! I felt so sad for her...gosh. Luckily i realised it, no 1 in my hse actually noticed tt she's been scratching herself more often nowadays. And the vet said its prolly due to her diet....poor diet leads to all these skin probs...so those who have dogs be careful! Dont overfeed ur dogs...the vet said vicky's too well-fed..cos i told the vet her diet consist of dry chicken or lamb based food plus dog snacks(my dad bought alot!!)...so she said too much junk food! In the end, the vet told me to change her diet completely, gave me a whole list of food tt she can eat...so i bought a new brand of dry food for her tt's fish-based. On top of that, she can only eat apples or pears as snacks...nth else. And for the whole of this 2 mths, she must follow a strict diet to make sure tt her skin heals completely. Lastly, the vet gave me antibiotics, antibiotic cream to apply on the bump...flaxseed oil capsules to mix with her food...and steroids. Haa i dunno wads tt for...but she said it will stop the itch and redness...but vicky will become more hungry than usual.

Ahh....i just hope my darling can recover soon. Im gonna watch her diet closely from now on and make sure nth goes wrong. =)

「 what behind my shadow. 8:17 PM 」

Finally got to meet up with Jill, sharon & jul on fri!
As usual, we sat at cartel tis' time round and talked for hours and hours.
Everytime we meet up, its full of updates and stories to share.
Juicy ones. I mean.(i wont say wad it is here...heh)
But yeah, or else, we will grumble abt our bfs non-stop.
Its just so comfy talking to them about lotsa stuff in my life. Like im totally willing to share abt everything. Cos i know they will understand how i feel and give their atmost true advices. haha. And jul...OMG...you slimmed down like SO MUCH! Jill said she looked like a desperate housewife. haha...like kena mis-treated or sth.

Some pics we took ytd!






But anyways, Jul told me abt festival of fireworks which me & ron managed to catch it ytd night at Benjamin sheares bridge...its damn captivating and amazing to stand on the bridge gazing at the fireworks for 20mins. Definitely worth all the trouble.(cos we cant find millenia walk..and we had to climb up the bridge, exercised a hella lot). But yeah, i just love the fireworks, especially when you watch it with someone you like. Makes it even more memorable.

Up on the bridge waiting for the fireworks to start!

Ron's back in his hometown, jakarta for one week. It does seem like forever once i left him and went home myself from the airport. And as usual, i got lost! I cant believe i can be so blur ...wanted to take bus 89 back home, but ended up in changi village. Why?? Cos i took the wrong side. Bah. In the end i just gave up and took cab. Haha..so much more convenient la. Hmm one week of being apart. Seriously speaking, we have never been apart for so long since last yr when he 'forsake' me to go back indo again for more than 3 weeks! 1 week is still endurable. I can do my flowerpod business...catch up with frens and help my dad. And bring vicky to e vet. Poor vic has patches of skin problems all over her body, dunno wads wrong. I was so worried tt i dreamt she became sickly and old...fat and all wrinkly in my dream. =(

As for my tiny business, im becoming so interested in doing sth online. That of cos can make some money. Still planning in progress. But right now, im clearing quite abit of stuff in flowerpod, thanks to all the buyers. =) But again, i seem to have never-ending things to sell, so i doubt my saleslist will ever be cleared. Dunno why but i just cant stop buying. Only when ron is with me will i be able to buy smartly and not spend so much. He's my financial controller and business partner, but with zero commission. Cos he helps with the pricing and titles. haa.

Recently, we had a HUGE quarrel...which kinda sparked me to think tt i really want a break up. I got really upset over sth which didnt matter to him much but meant alot to me. He felt bad abt it but wasnt aware tt i could get so hurt by his actions. And plus all the things he said tt particular day, i was feeling really down. And at night when we talked over e phone, he had to ask me even more questions abt our existing BIGGEST problem in our r/s(which some of you know), that kinda agitate me to e extreme tt i couldnt stop crying. I got so upset tt i couldnt tolerate anymore...msged him to check his email cos there's alot of things i cant tell him in person at tt time so i rather send him a mail. That night, we went to sleep thinking tt we are only friends from then on.But the nx day, we met and talked abt this. Cos apparently, both of us still feel alot for each other. And somehow, when we see each other and talked it out, everything seem to turn better. The 'misery' i felt tt night was gone suddenly. I dunno why our r/s is so wierd, all the back and forths we had...we just cant let each other go.
Ok, nuff said about him. Im really beginning to miss him.

「 what behind my shadow. 8:22 AM 」

I dont know if you can call that human abuse.

But i just think its ridiculous not wanting to pay delivery charges for Mac, KFC, Pizza Hut when you wanna eat them.

And BECOS of that, you have to make tt someone go all the way to a place where there is WHAT YOU WANNA EAT to get it. Just to buy it home for you so that you can jolly well STINGE on 2 BUCKS, for goodness sake. I dunno this post will offend who, but i just feel that that's not the way to treat someone, even if he or she is a maid, drug-trafficker, useless bum or whoever. Thats soo damn ridiculous to the extreme. You are willing to spend 20 over bucks on fast food, den why NOT the delivery charges?! Its only right you shud pay for it, at least to me. And come on, tt poor person dont have to rest ah??!! Fancy asking tt person to go all the way just to get some food to fill ur stomach late at night?! When you can just call for delivery service AND PAY FOR IT??!! You find it EXPENSIVE just to pay $2 for food? Gosh. Then you shud save $$$ on your other luxurious spending instead of mis-treating someone like this.

Wa, im super angry after hearing this. That i have to blog it all down, no matter who i will offend man. This is just so unreasonable and ridiculous that i cant imagine someone close to me is doing this to other people.

Arg. Disappointing.