Was shopping the whole day in town with Jill & Sharon...
For like 5 or 6 hrs,
in the end...i bought nothing!
I really cant believe it, its like a record set ah. I have never bought almost NOTHING during shopping my entire life. Omg..this is really unbelievable. After i started Ms Divine Shopper*, i find myself becoming smarter towards shopping..like wad are the stuff i can buy & wad i shouldnt.
And finally, we got to meet up with Juliet's bf, Edwin. I saw him before but didnt really talk much the other time. He's quite a gentleman, i must say. Happy for my dear friend. ;) And seems like now im the only one who is "single" right now...kinda not used to it. Cos im always the one who's attached all the time and always the one who has endless things to yadah abt my lovelife. And now, i became the listener instead. My dear fren Sharon is also in love! Jill's happily attached with her bf & Juliet too. Hmm, i dont feel tt im pathetic or what...just a tad not used to it.
I know Ron wont read my blog after we broke up. So i can write wadever i want here. And i hope he wont read also...and know im such a useless girl. Yes, i still haven gotten over him. Its not easy. Many times in a day, i hope i will receive a sms from him or just chat with him online, i realise tt nowadays, these are the little things tts enuff to make me smile. I know i will get lotsa knocks on my head from all u guys when u read this...but honestly, im at a loss too. Im really trying very hard to get over this r/s. In my heart, no matter how much i want him back, i know its really impossible btw us. Its never gonna work out btw us, thats wad he said to me. I just find it so hard to accept this fact whenever i think how happy i can be when im in his arms. Or all the little gestures of love that he has shown to me for the past 9 mths...and how much time we have spent togr...it breaks my heart to think abt all these.
Today, i met him for lunch. Dont scold me pals. I know now isnt the right moment to see my ex-bf, esp. when i still like him so much. But i just want my heart to feel better. Indeed, i felt rather happy when i saw him. We talked quite abit...even though there were moments of silence. I guess we just dunno wad to say to each other. There's so much tt i wanna say to him, but i dunno how to. I kinda regret not saying , "I love you" to him, not making use of any chance at all to express how i feel towards him when we were still togr. And recently, i always have this urge of saying to him. How ironic.
Cus i need to post some stuff to my customers, i was writing the address when i heard him picking up a call from his overseas fren. And i could guess tt he was asking ron who he's with and wads hes doing...and he replied, "im with a friend. " I almost wanna tear. My heart almost crumble into pieces. I try so hard to hold back my tears. I will never be able to tell other ppl he's my friend only, esp in front of him.
Im such a failure.
*georgiana* 
