Saturday, August 12, 2006
I went to meet Jill & Sharon for dinner and dessert ytd in town.
And told em that im single now and why i let ron go.
The only reason is becos of religion.
We do have other probs; but all these i believe can be solved ultimately if we want to. But its the religion issue that will always be there.
I cant guarantee if i will ever become a christian.
Cos of family business background, my entire family, and also, there are alot of areas in christianity that i dont agree and believe. And right now, im feeling so skeptical abt christianity. WHY? Becos to me, religion is supposed to be something that binds people together, regardless of wad forms of religion, just like race. But yet, christianity puts people of a different religion apart. They can only bind with you if you are "one of them". And even in love, religion becomes the biggest issue. Without religion, there's no love.
Since i was small, i have always been a tv freak. All the dramas i watched before abt love...now i realised that its impossible in reality and that it only happens in that square box call television. These scriptwriters really deceived me...;( They always portrayed a couple so happily togr and all these happen becos of LOVE. Love is enough for a happy couple to stay togr. But in reality, its not enough for some people. Even with love, in the end you can still go your separate ways. How sad is that.
These few days i've been thinking alot...breaking up with him is of cos very hard for me. I dunno how long its gonna take for my heart to recover from this. Cos after all, ron has really became a huge part of my life since i went to smu last yr. And we have been through so much togr this one yr that he alr has his place in my heart. And now, i have to treat him like a friend which i dunno if i can ever do that. Maybe in time to come.
But honestly, i really learnt a lot from this r/s. This is really one of the most important phrase in my life...i have come to realise many things in life. Firstly, i should know a guy better before i get togr with him. That means, make everything clear first...his background & all. Somehow, dating a non-christian or catholic will be one of my main bf criteria. I know tt sounds dumb...but i really detest putting myself in such a situation ever again. Secondly, he must love me more than i love him. If not, in time to come, i will definitely suffer. 3rdly, he must appreciate me. Yea, thats about all. Easy isnt it? My frens make it sound like as if its so easy for me to find another guy. Its not lo...not easy to find a guy whom i like and he also like me. So pathetically, im being pulled into this bet cos im single again. Every new yr countdown, we will have this bet amongst the 4 of us. Whoever remains single when a new yr approaches will have to treat the rest a sumptuous meal. Now its my turn. ;( (cross my fingers*)
Ok, time to share some pics!
*georgiana* 
