waiting for you: overworked.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Yes, i feel very overworked. Tired. Weary.
Basically drained.
My everyday is busy, more busy and still busy.
With wad?
School, ms divine shopper and friends.
That i dont even have time to bring vicky to see doctor again. Her poor skin is getting worse.
Hurts me to see her lidat. When i tell others abt her skin condition and they tell me, maybe u cant do anything abt it. Maybe she's just old.
...........
She's really getting old?
Vicky's reaching 7 yrs old soon. I cant imagine her getting old and all sickly. I just cant accept the fact that she's experiencing all these probs cos she's old.
In my heart, she's always young, full of vibe and always there for me. When im unhappy or sad, she's the only one who will give her whole heart and all her love.
And its unwavering.
It wont change becos of wadever reasons, thats why she's soo deary to me. Despite her shitting or peeing ard da house, she's still soo adorable and lovely.
When i am damn sick of things or people around me, she's the only one i can count on. Cos i will never be sick of her.

Today i realised i am soo sick of many things around me. I feel so spiritless. I am trying to be happy and stay positive. But i just cant. Behind my smile is all my frustration with my life and everything.
I need to find a new shore.
I need my peace.
I need to find my therapy.
I need to find my happiness somewhere.