Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Where is the feel of maiden?
The feeling that attracted me and made me so mesmerized.
The inchoate spot where i used to stand and refused to move.
The pillar where i always lean on.
The sense of self-assurance.
The thought of depending on you.
From where we used to be.
From the point when i entered your world.
Till this day, i couldnt feel it anymore.
Am i changing? Or is it you are getting weaker?
Or maybe, we are just not what we used to be?
Time has changed, and so people changed.
We are all victims of time.
But, i still adore the pristine.
Cos thats the moment when im totally captivated by you.
Let me go back.
Friday, January 26, 2007
At this moment, i long for peace and serenity.
Like what all other taureans always wish for.
I need a getaway.
After all the loads, tons and tons of work waiting for me to finish.
I also wish i could get 30 hrs a day.
Cos i have exhausted all my time management skills.
Thats the best i can do to share my life with so many ppl and priorities.
Sometimes i really wonder if i set expectations too high for me to reach.
Or perhaps, its just not the right time yet...to achieve so much.
Im drifting further and further away from where i originally stand.
I feel weighed down by almost everything...
Though this may sound stupid, but recently Vicky is the only one who can really make me happy..or simply, she's just able to make me smile at her. She's like my personal mood therapy...for that moment at least.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Shucks.
Why is this happening?
Strange how my feelings are growing each day.
Freakkk.
So useless.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
30 days of holiday & i feel like i suffocated during these while. Many things are getting into me...cornering me to somewhere i feel i cant breathe at all. The world's filled with uncertainty & cruelty...with some idiots making bad comments at ur site for god knows why. But they just enjoy doing it. To make themselves feel better and to affect my mood. I guess they succeeded. I did feel bad but it spurred me to improve further on MDS. Its not something i will give up easily. Its a stepping stone to realise my dreams. I have so many areas that i need to improve and make changes on for the new 2007. And intense competition which i have to keep up with. Its an unexplanable feeling thats boiling within me...no longer just a sideline besides my studies..but something that i want to achieve in my life next time. Its not just a heat of the moment...im really bent on going into fashion line. Stressful. Tired. Disappointed. With reality, people & relationships. Amazingly, MDS* make me realise all these within 6 mths. A simple online fashion business which makes me see soo much in life over the past few months. And you finally know who are the ones that are really standing by you no matter what happens. Becos NOTHING lasts forever. Damn, what a sad opening entry for 2007. But its alright! Im super optimistic with this brand new year, at least there are still people and things in my life that are keeping me going. Still the crazy geo.
Anyways, for this new year, i have a new site layout which jiaming helped me design @ msdivineshopper@blogspot.com. Im like super grateful to him. He's nowhere linked to MDS*...not as a partner or wadever...but yet he still plays a huge part in my business. He gave me the most honest advice and tell me what i should do to make my business better. Basically, he's just a little guardian angel to me. Whenever im lost or feeling really down, i will pour everything out to him. And he will definitely come up with a solution for me. And its weird how he never get tired of all these nonsense from me when he's already so preoccupied with his own life. I dont care what the outside world say of me....rebound, infatuation, crush, keep changin bfs...wadever. Im totally on deaf ears becoz i know wad im doing. He gave me a white guess watch on xmas and made a collage for me saying words that no guy has said to me before. And it really touched my heart like mad. I was trying very hard not to cry and still pretend tt im cool.
And his voice...my god. He's like my personal jukebox. Everytime i hear him sing...i will fly to another world. Im serious. All my troubles and stress will be gone for tt moment when im totally immersing myself in his voice. Now i finally know why songs can touch people' heart...especially when tt person whom u like is singing songs so well...u just feel like hearing him go on and on forever. ANd time will just stop there. He gives me all the jitters whenever he opens his mouth to sing. That voice.
Melted.
*georgiana* 
